A couple of months have passed since my last post and we have been treading water, battling at times to keep our heads above, yet sometimes I can see beyond this year - just to be able to accept that we will get through is enough. My children battle their own demons and I wonder had the nightmare occurred when they were younger, would their understanding, acceptance and battles have been easier. Who knows?
For myself, my work is a slight distraction, but I could still give it up tomorrow. All I want to do at present is write. And so I do - and feel better for it. Does it make the demons go away? Does it help me make sense of it all? I'm just running on gut instinct and that seems to work.
This week I feel a slight change. Perhaps it could be due to a book I picked up during the week - 'When The Rains' by Maggie Mackellar who endured not only the suicide of her husband, but within two years, also the death of her mother. Reading this book I realised some common threads linking our experiences, feelings and thoughts and the book helped. So, many thanks Maggie!
I have also been frustrated with the media and the ongoing 'blackout' with regard to open discussion about suicide. The Sydney Morning Herald this week has published an opinion article 'It's time to confront the deadliest demon...' which prompted some letters to the editor - hurray! Some discussion at last. Luckily, I had one published this morning..... 'No hysteria in preventing suicide'. Hope the discussion keeps going.
Sharon
